I'm know I shouldn't be thinking about the papers I've done but arghhh so depressed..... Screwing up the easy papers and throwing my A1 away fml

O levels!!!

Today is the day!!! It's weird that I'm feeling more excited than nervous:p but yay freedom is nearing!!! I hope I won't screw up any papers🙏🙏🙏all the best everyone!

Believe in me

I'm losing myself trying to compete
With everyone else instead of just being me
Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay
Cos everyone's perfect in their usual way
So you see, I just wanna believe in me

The mirror can lie
Doesn't show you what's inside
And it, it can tell you you're full of life
It's amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay
Cos everyone's perfect in their usual way
So you see, I just wanna believe in me

I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down, not today
I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength to make it through

And I cannot be afraid
I'm gonna wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay
Cos everyone's perfect in their usual way
So you see, now, now I believe in me
Now I believe in me


Her songs are so relatable!! I love you Demi<3

This sucks, as o's gets nearer, I'm feeling more tired and slacking more......... At this rate I'm really gonna screw up. Sighh:( plus I had this really bad fever ytd that caused me to sleep for a full 16 hours and that means I didn't do ANYTHING the entire day (other than one physics P1 but who cares). Threw up while I was bathing and it was extremely gross cos I only ate watermelons and you can guess what's the state of my puke like:p today was super unproductive too as my stomach was still being a bitch and there was no one time I visited the toilet without having diarrhea-.- what a time to get sick, I'm so screwed.

Last day in Nanhua

Tmr will be the last day as a Nanhuarian:'(((( even though I really hate the school's system now, I'll really really miss everything about the school, the teachers and of cos the awesome friends inside:) I hope I won't cry.....

Anw, today was such a greattt day!! Mr wong and mr lin came back!!!! Mr wong even took double the amount of pain killer to drag himself here:') Mrs Lee also made this really touching video of us from when we were sec1 till sec4!!(I looked like a freaking hamburger last time) can't believe we went through so much tgt..I'll really really miss this class sososososo much.

坚持比努力更重要

I think I can say that I've been working hard for the past 2 weeks and I'm gonna continue working even harder for the remaining 40+ days. Don't wanna have any regrets after O's... I belive that if I put in all my effort, I'll be able to pull through this. I'm probably a bit more stupid than the others that's why I need to work like 10x harder, that's just life.

Anw, today was quite slack in school. Revised some of my work during chem period and while they were having chem timed practice blablabla played block catching during recess and after school! It was fun! I guess it's our way of distressing. We also invented this other game and I can't wait to play it again!! Stayed back till around 5.30 to study then headed to tuition.

I have to say I really appreciate the help of the people around me:) forever willing to help solve my math/physics problems and always sticking post its in my books to motivate me! Can't ask for better classmates:')

PRESS ON EVERYONE!

L1R5 dropped by 12 points but I'm nowhere near satisfied. Need to work much harder. I CAN DO THIS.

Last lap

Sometimes, I wonder if I'll be able to make it. Lagging behind my so much and there's only 21 days left to o's... Really not expecting much from myself, I hope I'll do ok. I NEED STRENGTH. I'll do whatever I can in this remaining 3 weeks and stay at my study table for the whole day. No more going out, no more slacking, no more procrastinating. I know it's a little too late but I'll try my best. Last lap, let's go. If I can't even make it to AC with 20 points, I have no future. I CAN DO IT. I CAN I CAN I CAN.