Happy birthday feng tianwei!

Holaaa happy 26th birthday to one of my favourite athletes! Thanks for being such an inspiration :) I'll look up to you forever! Continue being cute and awesome!! AND wooohooo I won an autographed fan for her bday quiz! IMMA HAPPY HAPPY GIRL:D

Super unproductive day.....

Decided that I shall sleep earlier tonight since I can't really get anything done with my brain not functioning well rn:( all I did today was an emath p2 and one paragraph of geog notes arghhh...WHERE'S MY SENSE OF URGENCY. I DESERVED TO BE SLAPPED. Also continued filling in my FTW scrapbook with more articles and picture:p
Anw, first day of lesson without chan and it already felt so weird:( I'm just so used to turning around to talk to her in class but she's not there anymore haizzzz...chem will also be damn boring now that I can only stay in class. Sigh she'll be leaving tmr and I hope mrs lee will let us call her or something before her flight...plsplspls don't cry:'(
(She came to school today to "surprise" us!! :') <3 )

Rawr

It's almost 1.30am and I'm still awake lollll my body clock is pretty much screwed. I can't seem to sleep earlier than 1.30am these few days and I don't even take naps..........have to wake up in another 4.5hrs yikes

:(

Oh well, other than monday, I think this week sucked pretty much and I don't even know why...
Went to botanic gardens on monday with 401 for chanhong's farewell party and I have to say I enjoy all the outings with these group of people thoroughly:) Of cos it was really fun, we played vball, balloon game, black magic, climb trees and took loads of pictures! Ricia, joey and I also went to orchard to settle lunch for nearly 20 people and our arms almost died carrying all the food. Overall, it was a really great day and I'm so thankful for this group of people.
Tuesday and wed were pretty normal with filming after school blablabla and I forgot to bring so many things for lessons and I lost my earpiece zzzzzzz...
Thursday we had another farewell party for chan and when we were all giving her our well wishes I just burst out crying omg:( everything is just happening so quickly.....can't imagine how things will be like without her sighhh. I'll miss her so much. After school, filmed for class vid again and damn a lot of conflicts were caused arghh..nvm it's over.
Friday was pretty much normal but I'm just so moody for idk what... Lessons as usual and had lunch before remedial with my lovely people:) slacked for awhile after remedial and rushed to tuition zzzzzzz stupid tuition...Oh plus it was chan's last day of school and muhua's leaving soon too siannn:(
So many dramas this week but I shall not comment on it much.. So toodles and till next time, I really need to start mugging like NOW.

Escape from reality

Hello folks I'm back from thailand! Although it was just a 2 days trip, it was the most carefree 2 days I've ever had in a long time. I didn't have to think about all those studying crap over there and just eat & shop all day long. The moment I reached singapore, it hit me once again that there's a shitload of things for me to be stressed out about. Travelling is just a way for me to escape from reality for a little while, hopefully I'll get the chance to travel more often in the future. And yeah thailand was great, everything was good and cheap and it was a whole new experience:)
Shall write more about the trip if I have time! 6 more hours of sleep!! Gonna spend the day with 401 tmr, I know it's gonna be fun:) plus it's probably gonna be the last outing with chan, so :((((((..goodnightt

Lost.

Somehow I feel as if I have no directions in life at all...I'm not even very sure about what I wanna do in the future anymore. The fact that I'm so damn fickle minded pisses the hell out of me. Arghh and after hearing bout education systems abroad, I feel that singapore's one is REALLY REALLY EFFED UP. Not even joking. You see children just studying aimlessly every freaking day just to be able to support themselves in the future wtf?! Super jealous of other kids in other countries where they choose what they want to do and make a living out of it. I WANNA STUDY OVERSEAS. Like in US or china if you choose to be a professional athlete, your whole freaking future will be planned out for you but here? Study study study, get some regular paying job, work overtime regularly, being super stressed out, die without achieving much. That's exactly what life here is like. Even colleges in other countries offer interesting subjects that actually make you want to study, but here it's just math science humanities...as if these will help you survive?! Tmd I'm just so pissed off about how screwed this society is and maybe myself. I really can't see a future in myself IN THIS COUNTRY.

Enough of that already. Anyway, had fun learning the dance with the 401 girls today and I have to say I'm really glad to have all these people around me. I'm loving this class more and more but sadly, all good things will come to an end and we'll be graduating in like 2 months time :'( I bet I'll just cry during grad day le sighhh...plus chan hong's leaving soon too:(:(:(:( yikessss I'm sad but at the same time I feel happy for her cos at least she doesn't have to suffer in this country anymore and do the things she like over there! All the best girl, I'll definitely miss you:') Time is really not on our side, gonna treasure every single second spent with them..O's is approaching in like 67 days And I'm not even done revising screw this...Plus my mum just decided to drag me to thailand this weekend so I won't have time to study again...this calls for late night studying tonight. I feel so frustrated rn zzzzz..so ridiculously tired this week idek why

Haters gonna hate

Hi guys~ I'm just really lazy to blog now a days so I'll spend this time to blog a longggg post..

Recently after the olympics, they're so many different comments about how our country have performed and whether we're proud of the medals won by the table tennis team yadayadayada.. So many people out there seem to be criticising how the athletes are not true blue singaporeans and they're wasting their tax money on foreign talent. The problem lies with this kinda narrow minded, insensitive people who doesn't know how to appreciate all the hardwork and efforts our athletes are putting in. If it weren't for them, we wouldn't even have ANYTHING. They sweat, bled and cried to bring glory to singapore and that's what they get? What's wrong with this society seriously... We shouldn't even be judging these sports people by their countries. If you have the talent, it doesn't matter where you're from, just show it to the world. Apparently, we don't have what it takes that's why we need these foreign talent. And these athletes sacrificed SO MUCH in their life, we should really give them some recognition and be proud of them. They're thankful to singapore for giving them opportunities to prove themselves, why can't we just accept them?

You're sitting comfortably in your air conditioned office on that huge revolving chair looking documents while THEY are training their asses off, tiring themselves out, just to prove themselves worthy. Shouldn't we look up to them instead? Try asking any singapore parent if they're willing to let their child sacrifice so much and suffer so much during trainings, I doubt many of them will even think about it. That's why we will never succeed in this area, there are too many people who are not willing to give up all the luxuries. I have to say that singaporeans are way too self-centered and all they know is TALK. If you're so great and wonderful, why not YOU put youself in their shoes and see how tough life is. "why not just buy the whole spanish soccer team and win the medal for us? I feel rather embarrassed as a singaporean." WHY NOT YOU JUST SCREW YOURSELF AND SHUT THAT USELESS MOUTH UP.

They are definitely imported players in different countries but you don't see them discriminating foreigners like we do. We see the whole british population cheering their athletes on even though not all of them are born here. Why can't people just learn.

No matter what, I respect all the athletes a lot and really look up to all of them. We'll probably never understand how much pain they've gone through, how hard everything have been for them. The least you can do is appreciate their efforts and keep your nasty comments to yourself. You dislike foreign talent? Go play yourself.

I'm really proud of team singapore for putting in so much effort! The colour of the medal doesn't matter, it's the process that's important. The tt team might not be singaporeans but I'm still sososo proud of them!! Kudos to the athletes who have sacrifced so much!! Much thanks to you guys. Rock on! I really hope the government put more emphasis on sports, I hate studying muahahahahahaha.

Sorry for ranting but I just don't understand why some people are so insensitive, till next time! Sleep time zzzzzz

A day I'll never forget

Today was just too good to be true! Went to the airport to welcom team singapore's paddlers back!! This is the first time I'm doing this cos I really love feng tianwei A LOT and I look up to all of them.

The moment they arrived, everyone seriously went wild!! And the moment wang yuegu saw her relatives, she cried! It's really touching:) I bet most of the people came for ftw hahahahhaha! She couldn't even get pass the crowd! Anyway, got to say that she's 10x prettier, cooler and cuter in real life than on tv!! She was like a little kid, smiling all the way and waving at everyone so shyly!! Awwwww my heart melted...crap I sound like a freaking lesbian but she's just flawless. it was a pity I couldn't get an autograph from her but still managed to shake her hand, pat her shoulder and pass her my fan letter!! She touched my marker too!! I hope she reads the letter:):) I think li jiawei's really pretty too!!! Hahahahah we both didn't let go of each other's hand when I shook her hand, toucheddd. I EVEN MANAGED TO CAMWHORE WITH HER HOHOHO DAMN HAPPY! She's such a nice person! I can bet I was the only one who managed to camwhore with her:D ahhhh it was really a great day and I'm really super obsessed with ftw and ljw right now omg this is a crisis. I'm straight. I'm straight. I'm straight. I like show luo and I'm interested in guys.

Spazzed bout them throughout our whole journey back with charmaine, wenxin and sylvia and I think everyone thinks we're super weird oh crap....
Goshh there's a victory parade and I'm DAMN tempted to go but I shall not. If not I'll probably turn lesbian..CONTROL BERNICE CONTROL. Feng tianwei why you so perfect!!!! Totally attracted the wrong crowd!!! Ahhh nvm I'll support you forever and always! Will be at Rio 2016 I promise.

Happy birthday singapore!!

It's singapore's 47th birthday today!! And leejiawei's 31st heheheh thanks for all the awesome games and may all your wishes come true:)
Anw 8/8 was spent with half of 401 and I have to say I had the time of my life! I really love this group of people:) we can really talk about everything and anything in this world. Today was such a great day! Finally a day I played all the way and didn't study a single bit:D thank you guys <3
Champs for bball and 3rd for netball interclass! Well done 401!!

Double bronze!

OMG YAYYY ANOTHER BRONZE MEDAL FOR SINGAPORE!!! My eyes were on feng tianwei most of the time actually even when the others were playing oooops..everytime the camera zooms into her I'll squeal with delight HAHAHAHHA. She just killed so many of us with her radiant smile OMG. Hahahahah I think many of us turned lesbian:p she's sooooo cute and has so much swaggg~ the rest were good too! Li jiawei is already a mummy and she still can play so well!!! Kudos to her ninja reflexes and super strong smashes!!!! Well done girls! So prouda the women's team especially my girl!! Having this strong urge to fetch them from the airport but .......hmmmmm let's hope they have a fan meet or smth!!
Just gotta love this girl super cute omg

2012 london olympics!!!!

I've got the olympic fever!!!!!! Stayed up for like 3 consecutive nights till around 4am just because I wanna watch the games ESPECIALLY TABLE TENNIS!! I think I'm obsessed with feng tian wei omg...One of my favorite athletes of all time!!! As in I loved her since 2008 but now it seems as if I MUST watch her every single matches and cut out every article related to her goshhh:p She helped sg win their first medal after so many years in 2008 in her first ever olympics and now another medal in 2012!! SHE'S SO COOL AND CUTE~ 2ND GIRL CRUSH AFTER HEBE. whenever I see her win any matches or points I feel that I'm happier than her LOLOLOL. And whenever she losses a match, I'll be freaking sad:( just like the previous match against japan...omg my heart just shattered into a million pieces esp cos the match before this was the badminton match between lee chong wei and lindan, my heart was already aching so bad...double heartbreak in a day fml. The moment lee chong wei fell onto his knees, I really felt sosososo sad and almost cried:'( That feeling you get when you trained so damn hard and lose the finals match by THIS much... It sucks real bad.
I wonder how it feels like to represent the country to take part in the olympics, I bet it must be awesome...sighhh I really wanna take part in the olympics but oh well I'm just a fat and useless potato:( if only netball was an olympic sport (I don't get why it isn't), I'll probably stand 0.01% more chance.. Sigh sigh sigh I can only envy those athletes.........

Luckily it's gonna be short week if not I'll probably die of fatigue. Only around 12 hours of sleep in 3 days omg... It's a miracle I can survive school...

ANYWAY, I'M SO EXCITED FOR TONIGHT'S MATCH!!! ALL THE WAY SINGAPORE!! GO FENG TIANWEI, I'M ALL ROOTED FOR YOU:D less than 2 hours!! Go get that bronze medal!!! It'll really make my week if they win today:)
For now, I really need some rest. Till next time ^^

Crap

These 2 weeks was just hell...seriously hate the school's way of doing things right now. The management is so screwed. Arghhh that place is totally like a prison and I feel so damn restricted to do a shit. Making us study the whole freaking day isn't gonna help...and this whole thing just shows us how much this school trust us, well obviously they don't-.- I miss the old nh, we're living in a shithole right now. If we want to do well, we'll know what to do, you don't have to force us. If we don't want to care, whatever you do won't help. Putting us in that stupid place is just what YOU think is gonna help. I really can't wait to leave this place.

And some stuffs happened ytd night that was really.....I don't even know what to say about it. I hate how insensitive and brainless you are and I have lost every bit of respect for you already... You don't deserve all these.

Really bad week and I'm feeling like crap rn. Well the only good thing that happened today was nisha coming to school. Miss this girl so much...